I'm blackin out on my last leg takin final breaths. Overheard the doctor say I aint gonna make it, final steps. In the zone half panickin half feelin gone. Hang on homie! My boys yellin tryna keep me goin. Little sister in the distance, I see her tears flowin. Where mommy at? She on the ground passed out cold. Aw man this is how it ends, death came quick. My God I'll do anythang just let me live. I wanna pray but I caint pray, I never really done it. I dont know if I should call Christ, Buddah or Mohammed. Gettin blooded earlier this evenin now seems wrong and my brain is searchin hard for any scripture or song. I'm havin flashbacks, now I remember, it was December. I was standing on the corner pitchin rocks in the window. Young dude ran up on me thought he was a winner but he started tryna convince me all the ways ima sinner.
(Man, you never understood man. You've lied before right? You've stolen before right? Man you've already broken two of the ten commandments man. That qualifies you as a law breaker, thats a sin man, it offends the holy and perfect and righteous God man, thats a sin, you need a savior because of the sin man. I'm just tryna break it down for you.)
Huuuh Huuuh! Havin a hard time breathin. But I ain't leavin until I know what I believe in. Wait maybe it was I on the block who was tellin me Mohammed was the rock, nah, stop.
(You know man, you know Mohammed was the truth. You know what I'm sayin? Islam is the way to go yo.)
But ain't Mohammed die? He a dawg and they buried him, thats scary then cuz I don't know if Allah really carries men. Let's get back to Jesus. Coughin and wheezin, this world's full of lies man, everythings misleadin. They told me dont be scared to die but dawg thats ridiculous cuz I dont know what happens to me next in this predicament. Its sickenin. god give me answers, give me clues, help me understand, who do I trust, what do I do?
(Okay we're losin him, we're losin him. He's dying fast. Nurse! Help me! I need help over here. Hurry up!)
Ah, oh man. I caint breath. I'm dyin. Caint think. Wait, wait, Mohammed, Buddah, no, no, no, no, no, no, Jesus, Jesus. Okay, back to Christ, first he lived, then he died. Then that easter play I saw one time said he came back alive. And God so loved the world. What's the rest of that verse? Think fast, I caint remember, help me nurse! Whats John 3:16 nurse? "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son..." Gave up his only son, okay yeya thats right. So whoever believes in him wait... who turned out the lights? Im dyin! Im dead! No my eyes went closed. I can't feel my feet no mo and my sides is cold. God please im sorry for all the wrong that I've done. I know I been a terrible father and a horrible son. I see it now. I wish that I could change some things in my life, I really never took the blame for things. like lyin and stealin and hurtin and dealin. I'd quit it all if your willin and let me walk out dis buildin. I wronged you I see dat I wanna give in but I aint really sure if you've forgivin my sins. Well this is it, no more discussion to do. I don't know much but I know I should be trustin in....